I Volunteer.

Word up. It has been quite some time since I last wrote. My head has literally been swimming in decision-making and planning. I have wonderful and exciting things to report. First and foremost, I have elected to take a package from my company voluntarily severing our working relationship. Yep. I quit. With the increase in oil prices, Delta wanted rid of 10% and I said "pick me, pick me". They had no choice. I really have not gotten use to the idea yet. I am still experiencing intermittent, small panic attacks. You know the kind where you can't breath for a minute and you look up to the heaven's saying "What have I done?". However, I know without a doubt it is the right and most wonderful thing to do. Darryl has been the most wonderful, supportive husband in all this. Thank you, thank you, for letting us "try this out".
The little guys have been completely oblivious to all of the late night number crunching and option-weighing going on, seemingly not involved in the decision-making process. However, they have also played a critical part. Every time I thought of them, looked at their smiling faces, hugged and kissed them, I realized how I needed to be with them MORE. (It has brought me out of the small panic attacks.) I hope they are going to benefit most. Hopefully, 8 weeks from now they won't be saying, "send me back to daycare, mommy's crazy". And, hopefully, I will have stopped saying "what have I done?"
So, what comes next. That is still a bit unknown. Still waiting on an exit date and I am in pursuit of part-time work. So, stay tuned for details.